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09 July 2015 @ 10:34 am

I dreamed of writing words on pages that were left unheard and thrown into the sea from a lighthouse standing guard over the ocean waves where my anxieties were paraded before me like a line of students blindly following teachers who insisted that questions were protests and arguments were rude and sent naughty girls and boys to dive through the windows even though they hated heights and feared the sea where the unknown lurked and no one knew if that shadow was a shark or a mermaid or Cuthulu come to rise out of the sea and consume the land leaving me alone in the lighthouse with only unheard words drifting across the sea to remember me by.


15 April 2015 @ 06:49 pm
She sits in the middle of the cafeteria
in an illusion of solidarity
the space filled with the noise of a hundred voices
under a light too dim to read with.

She sits alone.
14 April 2015 @ 06:30 pm
Beds hide bunnies and balls
Earth and stone marry in caves
Leaves laid to rest on roots
Oh, the many secrets I keep.
What am I?
09 April 2015 @ 06:31 pm
Money; noun

a mode of currency

Currency; noun

a form of trade, or payment

Payment: owe

What is owed?

Blood; synecdoche

blood, flesh, being, life

Life; to live;

The First Human Right

right; Who is right?

I am right, you are wrong.

So pay.

Pay in blood, in flesh, in being

in life.

What is life, but time?

Time is money, money is time.

Time for charity, time for war

Time for living.

Money is time.

Time is living.


So pay.
09 April 2015 @ 06:12 pm
At sunrise, you were my friend
At high noon, the one I loved
At twilight, the source of my doubt
At sunset, the boy I never wanted to see again.
03 April 2015 @ 09:32 pm
You’re still my friend and I still care
I can’t bear talking to you but I can’t just leave you there
If you ever asked for my help I’d drop everything and go
I may not be in love with you anymore, but I still care.
You know?

I may hate being around you and maybe in the darkest nights even hate you but I can’t

Why did you have to do this?
All it took was a phrase. One fucking phrase.
This is the whole reason I’ve been avoiding you.

It’s too late now you’re out of my reach
I can never tell you how I feel
And believe me when I say I am happy for you
She will be good for you. I mean it. I am so happy for you.
Current Mood: melancholic
03 April 2015 @ 08:21 pm
I fell in love with you and I pushed you away
My feelings, my actions
Chasing each other into a destructive hurricane
Tearing me up from the inside
And the worst parts were the good parts
The good times and the great times
Holding the wound open until it bled again

Now everything is awkward and different and it’s all my fault
And I don’t even know what you think
I don’t want to know
I don’t want you to ever know just let me go
I can’t let you go
I don’t know
I don’t know

Let me quit you like a drug let me leave you like a bug
I can’t
Because I still care.

You drive me insane.
I wish I could get rid of the bitterness and go back to being your friend
And the worst part is
Even if I could go back to what we had before
Without the distrust
Without the suspicion
Without the panic
I know
I’d just fall in love with you all over again.
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Current Location: home
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Fallout Boy
I look and I look and I do not find anything.
I search and I search but I don’t see your face.
You smiled at me, didn’t you?
Back then, when we sat together, you smiled and kissed my cheek.
But I look and I look, and I do not find anything.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: iffy
Current Music: the sound of rain falling
Title: Promise
Rating: Everyone
Characters: James Trent, Kei Trent
Pairing/s: none
Tags: old, pwp
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Current Mood: sleepysleepy
03 January 2015 @ 10:07 pm
...how I'm so proud of the poems I post here but almost none of them are publishable. They're either too short, or too angsty, or too rough. It's hilarious.

My posts for Charlie and Zach are so cute, though. I actually have an nsfw story for two other OCs, James Trent and Kristopher Shiratori (not mine). Maybe I'll post it soon. There are some new comminities I joined that I need to break in after all, ahaha!

Just kidding.
Current Location: home
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: persona 4 reincarnation soundtrack